Im feeling that I need to introduce myself before I just jump on in to blogging for T2T magazine. So here it is….
While pregnant with my daughter I started searching the web for a first time mom blog that I would enjoy reading. But I quickly came to the realization that there was no blog for a Mom like me. My pregnancy came and went and I still could not find a blog that I enjoyed reading for more then a day. .
So gave up on finding one for myself. One evening I began telling my husband that I had given up. When he looked at me and said
“Sweetie, that’s why people like you have blogs” I asked what he meant and his reply said it all “Where in world are you going to find a blog for you? Honey, You are a young married Mom that is totally confident and stubborn in her “hippie” parenting style (thanks to being a nanny for 3 years) has suffered though infertility. You own your own business, you coupon, you breastfeed, you cloth diaper and are a Christian wife and southern girl while doing it all. Of course there is no blog that sparks your interest.”
I sat in the tub that night with my newborn on chest thinking about what he had said and realized he was a 100% correct. Being a nanny for 3 years had in a way taken the fun out being a first time mom. Everything was a “been here done that” experience in one way or another. My daughters 1st diaper was most likely my 10,000th diaper. Teaching my husband things that I “thought” everyone knew was a strange experience I felt like I had worn out the “OOO look, at her, she’s perfect and everything she does is so cute and amazing.” and the “ I have no clue what I’m doing so I’m going to bust into tears” stages on being a older sister and nanny. And this caused some postpartum baby blues. I wasn’t enjoying my newborn. I didn’t feel like a first time mom And it made me felt like I was a bad mom in return.
I remember our 2nd night in the hospital like it was yesterday. Our nurse came in at about midnight and asked if we wanted her to go to the nursery I smiled and replied “No ma’am, we would prefer her to stay with us. Id liked her to breastfeed all night, Thank you though.” and her response was so odd to me. But now that I look back at it I understand where she was coming from. She smiled and looked at us and said “You guys are the most laid back young parents I’ve ever had.” I was a tad offended by that comment. Thinking to myself “We are not some crazy drama filled highschoolers on 16 and pregnant. We knew what what we were doing. We are in our early 20‘s.… does she really think that we are that young? My God Morgan, don’t tell her you got married out of high school at 17. This poor old women may have a heart attack” And then she continued “And God bless you for wanting to breastfeed. I’ve never seen a young mom be so confident with her 1st.” And looking at my husband says “Dad, you look pretty confident yourself over there.” Wanting this women who now has my hormonal fragile, new mom state of mind feeling like crap, OUT of my room. I smiled and replied “Awe thank you, your right, not many WOMEN breastfeed anymore. And We are so blessed, we come from big families so this baby stuff is pretty old hat to us. But if we have any questions, Ill be sure to page you.” She smiled and left the room and I began to get even more upset. I felt like we were being judged for being “young” parents. I was worried the nurses out there were talking about my new family. Had they been judging my husband and myself all day?
So I have realized my husband, was right. There are no blogs for Moms like me. I feel like surly there are other Moms like myself in one way or another. Weather they cloth diaper or they own their own business. So I’m gonna do it. I’m goanna be a blogger Mom that blogs about her imperfectly perfect life.